Merdeka Celebration

Today we had our annual merdeka's celebration in skool!!! My class ( 4 Dedikasi ) won the singing competition.. so we had to do the performance again!!! LOL MAN!!! I had to wear baju kurung.. urg!! it was hella huge for me... TT___TT!!!

I looked huge.. and we practically did nothing the whole day.. urg such boredom ness.... sighh!!!!!!!!!!!! The form 5 had to wear traditional costumes.. awww they all looked soooooo cuteeee!!!!!!!!! XD!! some were just too much...

He stole it.. THaT JeRK!!!!!!!

Hard to believe, i could be like this!! I am lost... completely!! Its his fault... tho i dont understand it... i cant help it... Its just the way it goes... O.o i believe i am "soul-less" but yet, its happening... How could it be possible? So much pain... so much sadness... it all makes me restless.. and gives out tonz of frustration. I even went under depression....

One way to look at it is.. "addiction" .. or is it pure lust?? He means so much to me.. and i dont know why... its all weird.. i just cant explain it.. I screwd up big time tho... "I cant tell you how much sorry i am... " What can i do to go back to the way it was? How to change it all and go back in time? Tho it would hurt me again... i just want to hear him...

I try to be like him... *_~ Follow his ways.. his talk.. his style... but i am just not getting something right... it just doesnt feel proper... Who is Sonu, i wonder at times. She is a total stranger even to me... Its true!! Am i what i appear to be ?? or is there someone different trapped inside.... ?? I hardly think.. its all such a blur ... it HURTS!!!!

Sigh.. ok i know this is confusing.. Urg!!! A few months back (early this year), i met this guy...!! He was really awesome.. cool!!! O.o (i m nt goin further in detail..) so much happened.... so much joy.. so much jealousy... so much pain... He used to be on my mind 24/7.. he still is... Anyway- as usual.. i screw it up in "my way".. and tention!! *BOOM* now we dont talk... Urg.... i am terribly sorry.. and i wish i could take it all bak.... I shouldnt have pushed.. i mean.. of course i do care very much.. but bugging him to quit smokin all the time..... ALL THE TIME... and lecturing him aka annoyin him wasnt the best thing after all....

Gawd.. i am not gonna talk to him even if i am really desperate.. i shall stick with my promise... Somebody knock some sense into his brains... and make him quit smoking.. drinkin and self destructing... I want him whole.... TT___TT

" I miss you very much...................................."

He can sing... he has a rock band... I like this song that he sang... Hear it.. ..... its lovely...... i cant get enough of it.. such a sweet voice.. urmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hearing to it... i am drowning in it.... full-ness... its perfect.... He is the best guy i have laid eyes on.... tho he is one messed up dude.. i believe outside.. he looks hardcore.. but on the inside.. he is soft as a marshmallow.. but he just tries to hide it... O.o that our theory... I havent got the chance to prove it... What lies ahead.. i wonder.... will.. we.................................???????

Ahhh see i told you he is a jerk.. he removed it from Imeem.. i'm sorry!!! I guess you cant hear it after all.. Zzzz!!!! Stupid jerk!!!!!! ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!

"Blast" started my Break....

Yay.. its here.. its finally here... My second term break.. sadly it lasts only for one week.. Its going to end soon. Time always seem to fly extra fast during the holidays. Why on WHY? After the break i have finals to look for.. sux big time man!

Anyway- i have prefects farewell party on Monday. This culture only started last year. After our yearly buffet, we use our extra money to go our and eat together. Instead of we being the host and wore out our asses, we pay and get people to serve us while we EAT .. CHAT and HAVE FUN!! This year, they have it in EON PiZzA, Bukit Tinggi. My whole gang decided to go.. duh!!

I had other things planned there after our party.. LMAO!! I planned to hang there with MY HOMIE and gang till 6.. woo hoo!!! So i had to wake up really early and follow my aunt to her kindy there... Coz the mall is near to her place.. She could send me when its time.. No rush and save petrol.. mwahahah!! I got ready and went to the mall at.. 11.00.. I had to leave by 11.45.. my other bunch of frenz couldnt follow coz they had to go back home. A couple of things to do , they said. When i got there, the rest werent there.. After they all came, we had to wait for the food for SOO LONG!!!!! Urg!! My tummy was crying.. poor thing!!

The time ticked.. till 11.50.. still no food.. i keep getting calls from my other gang (homie) asking me to hurry up and hang with them.... While my prefect bunch were asking me do stay.. Divya was like "you are stayin..." !! I just couldnt say anything to object.. because she was also one of my really close friend... and we hardly get to hangout.. So, i waited till the food came.. which didnt seem to be happening. Ciuyi called to me.. asking me when would i be leaving ~ she was following me.. haha!!!

FINALLY - the pizza arrived.. after sooo long.. urg!! Slow service man!! Oh well... i just gotta learn how to be patient... While we ate.. we talked.... and snapped picx.. lmao!! Haha... We were buzy taking pictures instead of eating.. I got an urgent call from my homie asking me to hurry up..and ciuyi was bugging me to eat faster so that we can leave... Sigh... so i stuffed myself with all the food.. BUT Divya and Archana didnt want me to go.. After so much explainin and begging... Divya finally said "ok ok you are free to go now.." I hugged then all goodbye and dashed off with Ciuyi along myside... XD!!!

We were off to KARAOKE with my homie and gang!!!!!!!!! WOOOO HOOOO!!!!!!!!

An hour late.. O.o so we dashed off as fast as we could.... the thing is... WE DIDNT KNOW THE PLACE... Haha.. it is the biggest mall here.. and my first time there.. O.o Neither of us knew where was the karaoke thingy... We walked blindly finding "sinma"~ to trace our way based on the instructions given... and guess who i should see??

First guy i saw was................................ ADWIN!!!!!!!!!!!! He is my best friend foreva!!! (guy) hahah!!!! I couldnt stop to talk much cuz we were already runnin out of time.. so all i said was..

"heyyy wutcha doing here.. ?"
"primary school gathering.. u?"
"oooo.. we are going Karaoke with frenx..."
"ohh icic...."
"ok bye...."

and we dashed off..... till the far end of the mall.. I saw Yoke Pei and Jasmin... Lolx..!!! They showed us the karaoke place.. which was just the opposite of the Cinema *swt*!!! O.o I also saw some "creeps and annoyin pests aka bitches" near the cinema bout to watch a movie... We just walked.. till WE GOT IN THE KARAOKE ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Party time baby!!!!!

We sang out lungs out man!!!! Soo hella fun!!!! After an hour or so.. i went out to get a drink.. and who i should see?? Unexpected yet there he was... Christopher Tee Fu Yuan (ChrisTee).... Damn that was a shock to me... O.O He was shocked to see me too.. mwahahha!! We greeted each other.. and ran back to the room.... yelling.....

"CIUYI, CHRISTEE IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"huh? where?? I wanted to see him... "
"CUMMM OUTSIDEEEE..." dragging her out...

When we got to the counter.. he was gone.. urg!! He and Ciuyi are primary school mates.. and he is my tuition friend.. sigh i wanted them to meet.. We blindly walked to a corridor.. I quickly gave him a ring while leaning against a wall (the outside of a karaoke room)... The door open and the phone was answered... He walked out of that room.. BULLZEYE!!!!!!!! That was total coincidence.. i didnt know he was in that room.. Haha... the look on his face .. lol man.. i cant eva forget that.. confused-shocked-impressed Hahaha.... he kept asking hw do we know it was this room.. LOL MAN!!!!!!! After they talked .. we went back to out room..

Solo singing... Group singing... Random Singing.. dancing.. LOLX!!!!!!!!!!!! It WAS bloody awesome!!!!!!!!! After our time was up... we left for lunch!! We had BBQ!!!! I was soo full with the pizza and fried rice.. so i didnt wanna eat.. but after getting a taste of the pork.. i couldnt stop.. >.< I believe i was the one who actually finished the pork.. mwahahha!!! Poor homie.. she was so sweet to get it done for me.. All i did was eat it!! XD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Later~ we hung there walking and chatting till 6..... woo hoo!!!!!!! I spent the whole day there.. what a great way to start the break!! coolio!!! I saw so many random known people there.. Lots of MGS-ians were there.. and also my other mates.. WoW!! Ten mins before my dad came.. we passed Sabrina(one gal from my skool) with two other guyz with here.. O.O i didnt know one of them.. but when he passed me ... he called out to me and said "Hi"!! He even called my NAME!!!!!! I totally didnt have an idea who that dude was.. so the best reaction i gave was stopped and stared at him.. LMAO!!! they just walked away!! HAHAHAH!!! gosh that was sooo funny.. we were laughing bout it later when they were out of sight....

At 6 my dad picked me up.. Ciuyi followed me bak.. so i had to drop her off at her home.. it was soo COOL!!! Best hangout so far!!! Seriously!!! Full of awesome-ness... XD!! We planned to do it again end of this year.. after finals.. yay!!!!! i cant waitt!!! XD!!!!!!!!!!!!

Prom Night

Ho Ho HO!!!! Guess what?? Its my first prom night!!! Haha i know!! A gal having her first prom night at the age of 16!!!! I guess its not that late... may be a tiny bit pathetic... LOLX... but hey- i can just be considered as an innocent creep right? First prom night.... one word to say it W-O-W !!! So many Unexpected thingz happened.... I even had a shock of my life.. HAHAHA!! Ok enoff of that.. moving on to "what happened"....

It all started with Lin Kee...

Lin Kee : Are you going to the RC Prom?
Me : Huh? What's that?

Lin Kee : Red Crescent Prom....
Me : Oh.. erm no .. not going!!

Lin Kee : Why??? It would be fun!!!
Me : No, we will have to wear dresses.... Eww

Lin Kee : Wat the heck... !! You can wear skirts/dresses/gowns....
Me : OMG thats even worst.. not cumin!!!!

Then Ciuyi, who heard the whole conversation talked me into thinking of going.. I actually said " ermm i guess i would go if you go.." !! And she actually agreed to go!! Cmon!! We are just not the kinda gals who wear skirts/ dresses and look all pretty ..girlish.. elegant !! Thats just soo NOT me!!! I NEVER wear skirts or gowns or dresses.. they look horrible on me.. and SO NOT COMFY!!! i am best in pants .. jeans!! THEY rawk!! K K... in the end i said.. no..cuz i just didnt wanna bother borrowing/buying a dress since i have none... and also.. i had other activities in the morning of the "prom night"!! I had paid for the Jap cultural day already.. XD...

After i came bak home from skool.. "some commotion" on the net.. (read the previous post to find out).. which had me change my mind... I quickly texted Ciuyi and asked her to book a ticket for me too... so i guess i would be going in a DRESS after all... embarrasing.. risk the un-confyness for one day... urg!!!!

OMG... till the last moment.. I DIDNT HAVE A DRESS!!!! A girls never-even-dream-of-crisis!!!! I didnt have a dress / gown / skirt to wear till the day of the prom!!! My sister tried hoking me up with one of her skirt..and my turtle neck tops... cuz my mom refused to get me a dress since i would only be wearing it once.. urg!!! OMG.. i looked.. (nt bad actually) in the outfit my sis hooked me up.. but i didnt wanna wear it.. it made me look.. too nerdy-goodie-sweetie!!! which is a total NO NO for ME!!!!

So i called Shi Yunn.. my adopted sister (same age) to help me with my crisis... and WALLA!! she got me a dress!! She brought it to the club.. and i changed once i gt there.. IT WAS... errr very open dress A.K.A sexy!!! I cant wear sexy clothes.. (i dont mind) but my parents do.. but just for that day... i didnt care!! OMG i looked.. like a whore.. (just realising that now).. but hey- like i said "enbarrasing moments in life"!! We ate.. lotsa performances... and food... watched.. some jerk guyz were shouting.. we snapped pics.. and just hang out there...

In the end.. they had "open dance floor" for bout 15 - 20 minz!! HAHAHA!! they switch on the light.. and the songs we so soft.. and terrible!! I only enjoyed the "low - Flo Rider"... it was the only song worth dancing.. but i was pumped with adrenaline... and very high (without alchohol)... Not many were dancing.. some went bak.. i got my frenz to the dance floor.. and asked them to dance.. but i guess they were shy.... And my best friend forever was also too shy to dance.. tho he asked me.. TT__TT !!! So sad.. i like to dance... but thank you to TAN TAN!!!! lolx he and his friend.. they dance with me for one song!!! woo hooo!!!! Well at least i had one dance.. !!!

After i got a little crazy (tho i alwyx am)... i got up the stage and started dancing with some unknown ppl there.. and jumping up and down!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? i was jumping up and down and dancing ON THE STAGE wearing A DRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN!!!! wut the hell was wrong with me?? Hmm I dont know!!!! CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY WILD INSANE CHICK!!!! uh huh!! dats me!!...

I had baskin robins while waiting for my dad to pick me up.... then slept like a pig!!! Ha ha....

...Lin Kee... Me and My sis (Shi Yunn )....

... Me and Yoke Pei...

...Ciuyi... Su Wen.. and ME.... *wuts with the stick?*

...Ciuyi.. Su Wen... Lin Kee.. and ME!!!!...

.. Shi Yunn (sis) ... Su Wen.. Lin Kee and ME...!!..

.. Su Vien.. Yoke Pei... Su Wen... Jas Min.. Jia Hui.. Ciuyi.. Shi Yunn..

Unexpected ..... dance??? *b4 prom*

Before i tell you bout the prom night.. lets take a look at... a conversation i has with one of my best frenz... about the prom....... Hmm... he did sound a little "nt himself" .. Ok actually the whole conversation was unexpected and ... weird... mwahahaha i alwyx have the tendency to attract weird things... "weird magnet" .. lmao!!!

Here is how it goes......

Me	heyyyy
BFF	hie
Me	will u b goin to the prom on Sat?
BFF	yesh...u????
Me	i just declined it.. TT___TT...
BFF	why????
Me	dunno...i was suppose to go.. with ciuyi and all.. then i came bak home and sms'ed her saying i m nt going...
BFF	swt!!! say u wan go la..
Me	erm.....errrr....>.<.....TT__TT.. cant!!
BFF	WHAI??????:?????
ME	i kinda paid to go for erm the japanese language thingy to University Malaya....
BFF	owh.. i see...
Me	i thought may be.. i could still cum to the prom after getting bak from UM
BFF	then??
Me	but.. then.. i dunno.. just decided against it
BFF	why??? what time coming back?
Me	round 6pm
BFF	oh.. still can make it ma..
Me	coz i dunno wat is wrong with me.. sheez... haha
BFF	sad...
Me	will u b going next year?
BFF	hmm.. dunno.. see first..
Me	>.<....ANYWAY- will u dance this year? tell me.. then i will decide to cum.. Haha!!!
BFF	errr... umm...come to see me dance??? or come todance with me??
Me	HAHAHAHAHAHA ...dunno
BFF	???? oooowh......
Me	what? wat did i say??
BFF	nothing....
Me	LOLX.....isnt it fun messing with you? HAHAHAHAHAHA
BFF	T.T.......................
Me	awwwww lolx.... i still say its fun messing with you but dun be sad
BFF	sad.....T.T.....
Me	WOAAA.... u r messing with me arent you..?? blek!!!
BFF	no...dun wana talk to you d...T.T
Me	WOAAAA.....WHAT DID I DOO?? SORRRYYYYY!!!! ok ok... i m sorry..... what did i say??? >.<
BFF	T.T
Me	woi...stop cryinggg
BFF	bullyyyy.....
Me	SORRYYY... TT__TT .. i was just playing!!! urg!! ok ok i will let u bully me bak!! u better talk!!! abd tell me wat did i do!! woiii!!!!
BFF	you bullied me larr...T.T
Me	i said sorry d ma!!!! terribly SORRY... i take it bakkkk...no forgiveness?? TT___TTT!!!!
BFF	MAAAAAAYBE......
Me	SOBXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.. TT__TT really??
BFF	yesh MAAAAAYBE....
Me	wow.... woa.. erm .. ok then.. wow..k bye!!
BFF	why???
Me	u said u cant forgive me right?
BFF	i didn't say that.....i said maaaaybe...
Me	u said "may e"!!! its the same
BFF	reaaly??? okay...
Me	woaaa......
BFF	i take it back...depends......
Me	depends on????
BFF	hmmmm
Me	depends on??
BFF	wait....i'm thinking........
Me	ok take ur time but tell me before i hv to go
BFF	owh okay...
A few mins later........ >.<
Me	ok?
BFF	maybe i'll tell you next time
Me	NOOO tell me now!!!
BFF	thinking,....
Me	erm ok think but please tell me now??
BFF	why>????
Me	>.< cuz i wanna know?? duh!!!
BFF	cannot know next time meh....? still thinking larrrz...
Me	cannot!!! coz i m not that patient.. waitin kills me, buddy!!!!
BFF	owh.. hahaha!! ok.. what time you have to go ah?
Me	hmm 10minz
BFF	owh.. wait ah.. tension!!!
Me	woa why??
BFF	hmmm.. okay la.. dun forgive you! HMPH!
Me	erm k!!!
BFF	i know d!
Me	what???
BFF	dance with me!
Me	u serious??
BFF	umm yes...no.. maybe.. i dunno?
Me	i needed only one answer.. hmpf...
BFF	uhh yes
Me	that means.. i hv to cum to the prom?
BFF	well.. there's always next time.. you dun have to if you dun want to..
Me	and its gonna take a longgg time for u to forgive me!!! lolx.. dancing is AWESOME!!!
BFF	haha.. better than not forgiving you.. XD
Me	BLEK.. its not!! forgiving me is way better.. YOu know it!!!
BFF	so when you gonna dance with me?? XD
Me	this sat i guess .. prom night?
BFF	means you going?? i dun wanna force u le..
Me	have to.. LOLX.. noo.. XD.. i will work it out.. somehow.. see ya at the prom.. and ok.. we shall dance.. now i gtg.. tc ciao!!

BFF	talk to you next time...
Me	uh huh... XD

OKKKK SO Now .. wutcha think?? Isnt it... erm sooo WEIRD?? I mean he doesnt usually SOUND like this.. i am having a feeling that this is an imposter..... but hey- i wouldnt know.. all i can say is... OMG WHATS THIS BOUT?? and give the U-HAVE-LOST-IT-PRETTY-BAD-BUT-I'LL-GO-WITH-WATEVA-U-SAY look.... !!!!

Crazy Mindwork Up There...

How am i suppose to know why did i create this blog? Its weird.. i never liked having a blog.. but heyy- i have a live journal.. and.. today i just randomly made this one.. Its totally weird to MUA but cant help it.. cuz thats ME.. mwahahah.... Here's smtg to remember...

Sonu_hush <---- Weird chick